Kim and Karmen

I have again left a big gap between part 1 of this and part 2 but hey ho, all in good time ! Picking up from where part 1 left off ( part1 ) I want to explore more of the things that helped me in a major way and hopefully this could help someone feeling similar or give some ideas to help or even just spark a bit of hope in someone who is feeling hopeless (I know this feeling oh to well, you’re not alone)  Counselling -  There are many different types of counselling and it really is an individual thing/choice as to which is most suitable for you. I had one to one counselling based on CBT which I believe the basis is to help you be able retrain your brain to manage and control the unwelcome thoughts. I was so nervous at first and was still having all the negative and unworthy thoughts about attending but i ending up really looking forward to my sessions. One of the most challenging but most rewarding parts is the ‘homework’, for example my therapist would set tasks that I would...

Shortly after Karmen turned 2 years old I started a part time weekend job, which has now developed into 3 full days during the week. At the beginning I had conflicting feelings about going back to work, which I will go into in a moment, however now I really enjoy it, and it offers a great balance and value to my life. To begin with I had not considered working a job, part time or otherwise whilst Karmen was so young. This was partly due to my beliefs and partly due to the way I was feeling (post natal depression) .  It was a friend who first suggested to me to go for a job, it was something she was currently doing and having been in a similar situation to my own with similar emotions she pushed me into applying and going for it, for this I am truly so grateful. I remember the day of my interview I was incredibly nervous, which would of been totally out of character for the 'old me' to the point where I actually cried as I was getting ready as I had zero confidence in my abi...

It has been so long since I last posted that I may have forgotten how to write! There are various reasons that I had stopped blogging, I go into these in detail on other posts but underlying I felt that i had nothing to speak about. But it will be good to get back on the blogging bandwagon and may be slighty theraputic, we shall see! Kim x