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Weight Loss Journey, The Secret and New Mum Feelings!

So, yet again I have failed to do weekly updates as promised about the DVD. I suppose this is for various reasons one o them being I didn't have a set schedule with it so would do it for a few days running and then have other things going on and not be able to do it. The last week or so I have been more dedicated though as my holiday is creeping closer so I have to be! I decided to start doing the WAGs workout DVD that I used to use a few years back to switch it up with the Charlotte Crosby 3 minute belly blitz DVD. And I have to say I really had forgotten how much I enjoyed the WAGs workout DVD. I definitely find it more enjoyable then Charlottes one and even found that my legs were aching more the following day with it. Which I did not expect as the Charlotte one does seem more serious. But I suppose you cannot judge a book or Workout DVD in this case by its cover!
What I find with the WAGs workout is that you feel better about yourself and can feel / see a slight change and improvement after a few days which I just wasn't feeling with Charlotte Crosby. Now of course this could totally all be in my head but either way I much prefer to stick with the one that I feel is helping me the most. Last week I was also really good with my diet although My downfall is weekends but it is getting easier to resist. And I hope that as I progress it will spur me on further. 

One of the main changes I have decided to make is not to measure or weigh myself until I have a more positive image of myself because I feel that I concentrate and focus on soooo much negativity towards my body that this is probably hindering my progression. It is constantly on my mind but in a negative way, as in I am always worrying about what I will wear to any various occasion no matter how big or small it may be. And I am always thinking about clothes and fashion I would love to wear but simply can't because of how my body looks. 

Before all I started being like this (actually before I had Karmen , although I am not saying this is because of her at all it is purely my own issues) I had read the book The Secret many of you have probably heard of this or even read it yourselves and if you have then this should make some sense to you. 

I truly believe everything the book tells you about positive thinking and after and even during reading it I undoubtedly had things happen to me that I believe we're because of my new way of thinking. Things relating to career, money, love and general luck and happiness. But since having Karmen I do feel like I have sort of lost my way a little bit. If you have children we all know you just get totally caught up in everything to do with them and your whole life can become just about them and I will confess I simply do not feel like myself anymore. I'm sure many new mums feel like this especially if you do not return to work after maternity leave as you lose your identity and your life changes even more. I know I feel like I've sacrificed a lot and i have mixed feelings about this as it a very difficult adjustment to make. 

But as she gets a bit older things get a bit easier and you learn to try and create a balance. I have realised this is what I need to start doing otherwise I am afraid that the 'old' me and my confidence will never be able to come back. So no more hating on myself and telling myself 'oh you are still fat' and actually I have taken a step back and realised that I am telling myself things so often that it's almost as though I am leaving no other option for things to change such as I constantly focus on how hard it is to lose weight and how different diets I've tried aren't working etc. Well how silly am I! If you've read The Secret you will know that essentially what you focus on the most you are wishing into existence. 

If anyone is reading this and has similar experiences I would love to hear from you. I am going to re read the secret and I also have the second book The Power which I am sure will both help to get me back to the person I was before. 

This doesn't mean I will be scoffing my face and simply wishing myself skinny! I have decided that instead of trying all this different fad diets or half hearted made up diets I am going to attempt the original Celebrity Slim meal replacement plan.
I lost over a stone on this before (pre baby) and actually enjoyed it. The bit that makes it difficult is no carbs with your meal but again this is all mind over matter and if I tell myself it is going to be difficult then guess what ! I will find it difficult. I am just going to shut up and get on with it this time and not constantly obsess over it as that is no use to anyone! 

As I said please leave a comment if you have any similar experiences about what I've mentioned. And until next time think positive! 

Love Kim xxx


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